I feel more and more lonely here. It's kind of contradictory because I'm supposed to feel more comfortable with my cohort, and actually I do. And I have DG. But ... I'd better not be too serious about this, otherwise, I would be depressed. Christmas break is coming soon, and I will see DM and CM who accept, spoil and love me. Two more weeks to try to be sane. Two weeks ... two weeks ... and I'll be OK ... In the meantime, IPA soothes my feeling.